The hardest…

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The first post after a long absence is the hardest.

Always.

I wish I could say there have been no words or images or voice because I was on a cruise or a six week European tour or an extended road trip across Canada or the U.S.A.

I wish I could say any of those things.

I can’t.

The awful life truth is that my mother died.

And I lost my writer legs. I’ve had no passion for clicking an image. No joy in creating story. No humor for a humor blog.

But the days move on and you have to drag yourself away from watching The Holiday on repeat because, for reasons unknown to you, it soothes. You have to stop cleaning out drawers and sorting through countless photos and lining up the silverware on the table… just so.

We all grieve in our own way. Under stress, I do physical labor, most of it with a toothbrush.

And cook.

But this past Sunday, I put myself back into the 52Stories52Weeks roster and banged out a 600 word short story and sent it off for critique. It wasn’t my best story, but it wasn’t my worse story either.

Today, I’m banging out this post.

It’s a start.

Love you, Mama.

Elen

19 thoughts on “The hardest…”

  6. I’m so sad to read of your mom’s passing. It’s not easy. I probably wouldn’t write either. I did miss your posts showing up in email 3 times a week, though. Welcome back and good luck with 52!

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    • Thank you, Eric. It’s a bit of a struggle, but my mother was a giggler of the first order and the laugh doesn’t fall far from the tree. We never spent more than five minutes on the phone before we found some humor. So for that, I’m glad to be finding my way back here. She would approve. I’m sure you wondered why I suddenly fell off the Taboo Word Challenge train. 52/52 is going to stretch me in ways I can’t even imagine right now. Cheers!

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  8. I noticed your absence Elen, and went on your site last week just to check that I hadn’t deleted a notice or some such thing. I’m so glad I did leave a wise-crack comment. I am very sorry to hear about your mom. I never know what to say in these times except take your time – your way and always look for those little nuggets of joy on the opposite side of that grief coin. I think those are what weave everything together. I know it’s hard but you will never get more than you can bear at one time.
    Thinking of you with much fondness and respect.
    xoxo Kellie

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